So…it’s been a while, just when I got into a routine with this blogging malarky, life has been a bit upside down for the past couple of months. In a sort of good way with a lot of stress in between but as they say, ride the storm and you’ll get a rainbow.
Yeah I know it’s a cliche but I don’t like to be negative on my blog and some people might wonder if I’m showing a true representation of my life but to be honest, I don’t want everyone knowing EVERYTHING. You could probably accuse me of only posting positive tweets/statuses and that makes it seem like life is golden all the time but it’s not. No one’s life is.
As much as it’s interesting to see raw emotion on someone’s blog, I’m not comfortable with it because it’s there forever on your little corner of the internet. People write things in the heat of the moment and that’s good from a personal diary perspective but some may regret this later down the line.
Before I go off on a tangent, the things I basically haven’t written about in a heartfelt way on here is the stress of not knowing if I’d have a job by Christmas, having been on a maternity/temporary contracts for the past year. I’ve cried lots, I’ve drove my family, boyfriend and friends mad (and myself), my sleeping pattern is all over the place at the moment and my appetite has waned.
But I didn’t particularly want to whinge and moan ‘Woe is me’ all over social media and my blog; I’d rather treat it as a life experience and then write about it all afterwards. It’s been frustrating to put it all in a word but would I change any of it? Some parts maybe but on the whole, it’s something that I’ve had to do to get to where I am today.
I could have gave up a couple of years and just accepted that getting into journalism wasn’t going to be easy, I could just work my way up in retail or get a secretarial job (not that there’s anything wrong with that) but would I have been happy? Having had experience in both sectors, I knew that I couldn’t give up on what I wanted to do and one of the worst things that anyone can ever tell me is ‘you’ll never be able to do that.’ Yeah…well, watch me.
I’m absolutely over the moon to finally have a permanent contract at The Mirror now as an Online & Digital Assistant. Having graduated nearly three and a half years ago, I’m so glad that I didn’t give on doing what I wanted to do, when at times, it seemed like the easiest option to do.
It is worth taking a risk and a chance sometimes and if it doesn’t work out alright in the end, it’s still something you can learn from. If things hadn’t have gone as I planned, I have gained so much experience from it all and have met some awesome people along the way.
Typically I’m one of those people that always wants to run before they can walk- what’s next, kind of thing. I know where I want my career to go and I know with anything, it’s not simply a case of going from A to B. Sometimes you gotta throw in your plan C, D or even E at times. But for the time-being, I’m looking forward to seeing where it takes me.